[stilltime]

I’m abandoning my first journal and starting fresh, too many tears and sadness in there, I want this journal to be filled with hope and happiness. Today is day 12 gamble free. No urges today and very little yesterday. I’m really making progress on my future and working on getting back what I’ve missed out on recently.

[lizbeth4]

Awesome stilltime! There is always hope! Congrads on your 12 days gamble free time. Keep going!!

[janey1]

Hello Stilltime,
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nI echo what Lizbeth said, well done and keep going, you’re doing great! Maybe when you’re feeling a little stronger and you’re further down the road of recovery you can revisit your original thread in order to see how far you’ve come? Use it as a reminder of where you don’t want to go back to too when times are tough maybe?
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nWe’re here for you!
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nJaney

[vera]

Well done on 12 G free days Stillme.
nYou really do deserve the best. You are a kind, honest and thoughtful man. Please don’t waste your life gambling. It leads us to lonely dark places.
nBe good!

[lizbeth4]

I hope tomorrow is a better day for you. We all have our days of struggling but it does get better. Hang in there.

[Pea]

Hi there is always still time to make the U turn. You have made it and are now on the road in the right direction gamble free, well done..
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nPea

[stilltime]

Thanks to the above people for the well wishes. I’ve realized the non financial toll my gambling has taken in my deceit to family members. It has all now come to light and things have been very rough the last few days. I hope the damage I have done is manageable for the people I have done it to. Trust has been broken and now I have to deal with that consequence. I guess time will tell. On the bright side I’m 15ish days gamble free 🙂

[icandoitin3years]

Hi Stilltime.
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nEveryone makes mistakes – But people who learn from mistakes are the once who will be successful. I am happy that you have pulled 15 days GF..
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nRegarding the damages which were done – I hope those can be corrected with hard work and determination. It will take time. But if done with full heart – it will be done.
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ngood luck and Stay away from gambling – there is no hope there.
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nI remember the days when i used to Earn 1/3 of what i earn now. I used to be very very happy – Now i don’t even know what happiness is because of gambling.
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nSo there is no Point.
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nTogether we all can fight this battle.
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[stilltime]

19 or so days gamble free. I’m feeling pretty okay overall. I’ve noticed that I’m obsessing over other things more than normal but it’s probably just a replacement for my normal obsessive personality. Anyway not much to report, still staying strong. Good luck everyone.

[charles]

Well done on your gamble free time. Trust will have been broken of course, the actions which will help you stay gamble free are the same actions which can help rebuild that trust.
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nTry and find a variety of things to fill your time, we are less likely to find somsething else to obsess on then.

[Pea]

Congrats on your time
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nI obsess over things too, it is in my nature, everything seems obsessive to me. If I’m not gambling I’m eating!! or cleaning.
nTime will build and you will change. People will see the change in you and most of all you will. Keep going.
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nPea

[stilltime]

I’m right at 30 days since my meltdown. I’m doing better and not thinking about the losses/gambling every minute of every day like I used to but I still think about it on a daily basis but it isn’t consuming me. I think I’ve fallen in a constant state of minor to moderate depression. I’m just not handling general life stuff well for some reason. Just some overall sadness and I don’t think it’s related to the gambling directly or maybe it is, very strange.

[vera]

Well done on 30 G free days, Stillme.
nIn the aftermath of loss, I think it is normal to experience a certain void . Maybe this is causing your sadness/depression?
nIf it persists seek help.

[charles]

Hi Stilltime.
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nMany people liken stopping gambling to a bereavement, personally I think it’s more like ending the biggest love affair we will ever have. Ever comparison could explain your current feelings.
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nIf they persist however I would agree with Vera, you are using support to stop gambling, there are other forms of support out there as well – talk to your Dr.
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nIt’s good to hear that the gambling thoughts are reducing, what are you doing to fill your gamble free time?
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nHopefully see you in a group again soon.

[Autore]

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