[Pgofc]

This weekend I had one of the worst experiences that I’ve ever had. I’m sure I’ve had worse things happen to me gambling wise, but it was the fact that I KNOW I SHOULD HAVE KNOWN BETTER! I have come along way with my gambling addition. Cash poker games use to be my weakness. I was playing nearly everyday for hours, and never really won. It took my life spiraling out of control before I wanted to defeat my poker demon. I use to host friday night poker every weekend. I felt it was my guys retreat. Then I started waking up with a hangover and out of few hundred, consecutive weekends and I ended it. Now, I gamble maybe once or twice a year. And its usually not planned. The thing that has had me in some dark places twice within a years span is an impromptu dice game. I can stop, if i haven’t been drinking. But if ive been drinking, everything goes out the door. I have a safe list of people that i can be around because they dont normally gamble. Well I lost money to someone who was on my trust list. The feeling that i had after he won the last of my money was, how did i get here? Self hate starts along with the tears. Life seems to temporarily stop because of the brain fog. Ive even done the research to know im a problem gambler along with alcohol. I haven’t played cash poker games in almost 2yrs. Ill usually play free poker at a bar who’s giving away a gift card or something about once a week. Im most scared about is being around childhood friends and having one too many and losing an embarrassing amount of money. This is my first try at this.

[Pgofc]

It seems like the more times you go through something, you should be able to handle it better. With gambling addiction it gets worse. Recovery time seems longer and the wounds are deeper. I have decided to tell my friends that if they see me ever getting ready to let my guard down, to intervene. Remind me of what i told them..something to snap me out of my weak state. I also want them to call and check on me on fri and Saturdays, the days that most of these tragic events happens. If anybody suggestions im open

[charles]

Hello and thanks for starting a thread in the Gambling Therapy forums

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[Pgofc]

Today, i woke up in tears still thinking about my relapse this weekend. My boss said she could visibly see something was wrong with me. I think about the day leading up to that event and how can I never let it happen again. Unfortunately, it was a good friend who won my money, so it kinda seems wrong that im going to tell him that i cant hang around him anymore. Im praying this demon is gone.

[charles]

Hi Pgofc,

If he is a “good friend” then can’t you speak to them. There are lots of other activities otehr than gambling that you can do. A good friend will stop inviting you to gamble with them, not talk about gambling etc

I would also avoid those “Free” poker sessions. They just keep the addiction tikcing over. Tyr and find other non gambling activities to fill your time.

Keep posting.

If alcohol weakens your resolve then maybe you need to avoid it. If you do drink then just have enough money to cover your drinks, then you can’t gamble.

[Autore]

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