[leolee4444]

Hi, my name is leo and i want to share my story.
I am 26 years old and a compulsive gambler. Two years ago, I was a happy joy joy person. I was fresh out of college with my master. I had a bright future with many opportunities. Two month after I graduated, i was able to find employment with great salary and benefits. I was single with no debt and living with my parents. Life at that time was great because i was able to travel anywhere i wanted and buy and spent whatever i pleased. This was the life i was living before entering the life of gambling. (I just want to illustrate the perfect life i was living before entering the life of gambling)I
Throughout my life, I gamble here and there but not excessively. Before becoming a Compulsive gambler ( CG), i would feel miserable and regretful if i lost 100 or less and  would not come back to the casino for a few months. After 1 1/2 years, I was able to find an interesting and amazing gf. At this time, i was able to have enough money to buy a new car and house. During this time, my gf wanted to open a business. She needed a big sum of money to open a business. I decided to abandon my dream ( new car and house)  and loan her that big sum of money to open her business. After many months of planning, she backed out in opening the business. I was left with a debt since i borrowed that sum of money from a close family member. I did not use that money and leave it in my account while i owe that person. Later, my gf decided to go back to school, so i decided to use that money to help her with . As a result, i was left with 1/2 of that money i loaned. It was during this time that my friend wanted to borrow some money because he had a gambling problem too. I decided to help and loanehim 2g, then 8g. He ended owing me 10g. He took me to the casino to withdraw money for him through my credit card ( cash advance). I had good credit with a balance of 20g. I asked myself why would he gamble so much and lost so much but keep coming back. I believe in what goes around comes around. I looked down on him and keep asking myself why he is so stupid to keep gambling when he can use that money for something else. One day i was sitting at home and decided to go to the casino since i was so bored. During time there, i won 1200 and i told myself it was so easy to win. I thought in the back of my head that i can win like this everyday and be able to make so much money in addition to my job. I thought to myself that i can be making more than a doctor if win like this. This was the beginning of my misery and journey to becoming a CG. How i wish i can turn back time and change the past. Within a year, i maxed out my credit cards ( over 15g) and owe my family member 40 g. I lost my paycheck every month and all my saving. I would estimate that i lost over 200g from gambling. My family did not find out about my addiction unless last year. They loaned me some money to pay off my debt but i ended up using it for gambling and eneded losing all of it. time after time i told myself that i would stop gambling but i ended up going back there and losing all my money. I was lying  and using my family and gf and the people around in order to continue my gambling addiction. MY luck came in may o this year when i hit a jackpot of 25g. I used that money to pay off my credit cards and some of the money i owed some people. I was in a very good shape because if i stopped gambling for 6 months, i would be debt fee and be at the place i was before i begin my addiction. In less than one month, i lost the 25g and ended up owing money. Right now everyone in my family and people who know me look down on me. People around me are calling me stupid and useless.

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