[BigDisasterSr]

Hello, I am 19 years old and I am currently a student. It all started 3 years ago, when my friend was playing at the slot machines. I watched and I thought to myself what the heck if I try 5 dollars it wont hurt anyone, but I was seriously wrong. It all went downhill from there. 3 months later I thought I will try 10 dollars this time maybe I will win a lot…

Fast forward 3 years later when I am at university, I cannot control myself, I am in debt to pay my semestar because of my gambling problems, I have loaned money from my friends to gamble, I lied to my parents to send me money, I used some lame excuse that I need to pay for some books but in truth I lost my money to gambling… My mom and dad work their asses off so that I could go to college. I feel like the biggest disappointment and the biggest piece of shit in the whole world, I feel like I dont deserve to live, like I am a failure, I am failing my classes, just because of the gambling. I am only 19 years old, I am scared what the future holds for me, if I gamble this much now, I wonder what will happen 10 years from now, mabe I will die by suicide? Maybe I will wander the streets asking for money to gamble. 

Also I drink. A lot. Whenever I drink I gamble a lot. At the moment I am drunk and I gambled all my money away. Also I took money from my roommat’s wallet without him knowing, and I gambled it all. I apologized to him in text message because I am such a pussy to tell him in person.

Please help me I beg you, if it weren’t for my wonderful parents and friends I would kill myself by now. Give me some tips on how to stop gambling once and for all. I want to see my future as a bright life filled with happiness and laughter. Not bleak and filled with depression.

I really want to stop, I would give my hand willingly if I couls stop gambling

[IRockVX]

Glad you’re here.

Have you joined local Gambler’s Anonymous or Alcoholics Anonymous locally in person yet? I recommend you do.

You’ve made the first step. Please keep posting here and keep writing — if you haven’t talked to anyone on live support on this website, please do that as well. Someone can talk to you live. You’re not alone.

I was 19 when my down hill gambling habits with Forex Markets were born and I couldn’t control the urges to bet huge and wait til I lost to stop … bet small amt of money maxed out sizes made huge and lost it all.

I’ve only been on here and other FB groups for gambling support for a week and i’ve taken every chance I get to journal or talk to someone when i get an urge to do something I know I shouldn’t and it’s made a HUGE difference. Deep deep layers of depression and pain coming to the surface and being cleansed.

I know you feel numb to any sense of self worth or emotional connection with other things in your life right now, but hang in there. There is a light, there is a way out where you come out alive and have a much, much better life. You’re going to become a much stronger person because of this.

Strengthen your connection with your heart and mind — if you haven’t ever before, start learning about health, connecting with your breathing, etc. You need many weapons/tools to fight and defeat gambling. Don’t get discouraged if one alone doesn’t do the trick — load up your arsenal!

Much love and support <3

[dunc]

Hello and thanks for starting a thread in the Gambling Therapy forums

Here at Gambling Therapy we pride ourselves on being a caring and diverse online community who can help and support you with the difficulties you’re currently facing. We understand that this might be a tough time for you, particularly if you’re new to recovery, so come here as often as you need to and participate in the forums, access online groups and connect to the live advice helpline if you need one to one support. We’re in this together!

Here on the forum you can share your experiences in a safe, supportive and accepting environment. The beauty of writing it all down is that you can take your time and you will be creating a record of your progress that you can look back on if it ever feels like you’re not moving forward. So, share as much or as little as you like but do try to stick to keeping just one thread in this forum so people know where to find you if they want to be updated on your progress or share something with you.

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And on that note….

I’m going to hand you over to our community because I’m sure they will have some words of wisdom for you 🙂

Take care

The Gambling Therapy Team

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[TF]

Hi Big D,
Unfortunately I know exactly where you’re at and after a couple of years free, I stupidly went with a works party and everything started again. It’s going to be hard…
I was up by about £2500 this time last month and now I’ve lost that plus £1500 in my account and I just got a pay day loan which I blew half of before it’s hit my account. I may not be the best mentor to have but I am one of the best examples of who you don’t want to turn into. I’m drawing on what helped me stop a few years ago, but once you stop, you got to stay stopped…forgiveness from a family that love will get you through but if you abuse that, it’s a whole lot of heartache the second time round. So a bit a tough love and reality check… you’re not going to win. Period. Some of the richest guys in the world made their fortunes from suckers like you. They want you to believe in the jackpot. So first step is LET IT GO! Yep, that’s the first step. Whatever you’re chasing doesn’t exist like the pot at the end of the rainbow. So give up the notion now. You’re also trying to chase the dopamine rush associated with gambling so find another way to get the rush but make it something that isn’t detrimental to you- stop the drinking; if you’re an alcoholic as well, what are you going to beg for first, gambling fund or drink? I know it won’t be food- I’m happy to keep chatting to you and for some reason I think it’s going to be be best therapy for me to, reminding myself of the lessons I’ve learnt but have since forgotten. Whatever you win the next time isn’t work the pain you’re causing yourself and your family. I hope this helps but I’ll be back on for more pep talks if and it’s a big if, YOU REALLY WANT TO STOP! If you don’t, nothing and no one mortal can help. Hope to speak soon
TF

[Penulis]

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