it’s really tough to find yourself in this place again but you can’t change what has happened, i imagine there is a lot of “what ifs” and “if onlys” constantly spinning around in your head but all you can deal with is today, self excluding is a big positive step.
one thing that was pointed out to me recently when i kept giving up and gambling again and thinking each time that i gave up i was in recovery and be ok this time, i was actually only abstaining from gambling and not taking steps to prevent me from gambling, i was set up to fail and now with that realization i am actually getting the help i need to kick this addiction.
