[oasisourcool6686]

hi my names danny miller. just alittle about me. when i was 18 i asked for the help and got it with the gordon house association in kent,. before that i was a right mess, i was addicted to speed and gambling every bit of money i had, and was falling behind on my rent etc etc, i was only 18 and causing my self so much misery. i wasnt really getting on with my family through my actions, we all no where this will lead. me having f**k all. i done 7months, and wasn’t ready i dont think. i wasnt doing it for me, with a addiction you need to do it for you. i was trying to please my family. and wanted people to feel sorry for me,. thats not the attitude i no now. i should of stayed for two more months but the covert craving at the time was telling me i was okay. just before i met my second mum tessa, who i met when i went away for the weekend with some people i met while going out of a weekend from the rehab, at the time there was a couple of residents i wasnt getting on with, but in away was after an excuse to go. so with this i moved to leysdown in kent, where i got a job as a dj in a holiday park. and everything was going ok for a few months, and then tess went back home for the week to go to work, and i had a job and i was left in leysdown, something happened as regards to where i lived, i put a blackbag in the airing cupboard which let out a smell. it was a simple mistake. but anyways i got beat up for this. and got kicked out i had no where to go. and panicked and we all no what happens now i lapsed. but instead of talking and fessing up to it. the covert craving took its chance and i went back to how i was, what i regret about that is not putting anything in place. and again thinking im always right. for the last ten years, i have massively struggled with the gambling, which lead on to a coke habit. and bingeing. but was denial and not wanting the help. in away i got use to not having nothing and that was my way of life. my old life was chaos, i was bingeing with drugs and gambling my socks off. i decided enough was enough, and seeked the help by contacting GMA in the west midlands. when i got the news i wanted i was bricking it, but for all the right reasons. i lost all self confidence and motivation, and this was my last resort really. and i had to really push myself to achieve a better life. i am now in the halfway residence which i have been for 7weeks. through finishing a 3month residential rehab. and at the moment it is surreal how much i have achieved. i am doing a fulltime college course in music. it is a level2 diploma, music has always been a passion of mine, and to be honest an escape in my darkest times. i cant believe how far i have come from a few months ago. i no its not gonna be easy and a walk in the park. but i am so happy with what ive got now. and through my relocation will be really beneficial to my recovery. as the social aspect will allow me to meet new people. i also do voluntary work its gardening for a care home which i get alot out of. by helping them is helping me, so onwards and upwards for me, ill keep u all updated on my progress. im hoping by me explaining these things. i can be a inspiration on what you can get if you put your mind to it. and you want the help. just to let you no i am still in contact with tess she is a wonderful lady. i dont no how she put up with me for ten years because i no i wouldnt lol. but yeah look forward to the rest of my life.

[janey1]

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Hello and thanks for starting a thread in the Gambling Therapy forums

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[oasisourcool6686]

Ty it means a’lot that. i will definitely use this site if im struggling in any way. this is a great tool for me. i have made sure to have a decent support network, i have been allocated a counselor at college as well. but ill be sure to use this if i’m troubled in anyway. Ty for commenting.,

[janey1]

Don’t forget the ex residents group on Monday nights, I know they’d be pleased to see you.

Janey

[dave_gma]

We sure would be pleased Janey!

[charles]

Hi Danny and welcme. You are of course welcome in any of the other groups we have here as well 🙂

I’m a CG myself and here is somethign I have learnt – if we wait until we are struggling before we use support then it is often too late!! You went to Gordon House to help you stop gambling, now keep using support to maintain recovery and make it less of a truggle. keep posting and maybe I will see you in a group soon.

[vera]

WOW! Danny!
Great progress!
From rags to riches!
True riches!. I have 2 sons who are into music. Wish one of them could get into the course you’re doing. He’s a great drummer but a bit of a “boyo”!
’nuff said!
Keep you chin up. Be proud! You can go it
ODAAT!
Me?
3 weeks G free today!

[oasisourcool6686]

thankyou for the message m8. means alot that. i will defiantely be in the chatrooms. this will be a great tool for me to use. i am putting things in place i have a great support network at the moment, such as gma, im gonna have a councellor at college, and now this. this week was overwhelming for me. such as college etc. its loads to take in. im not use to these positive things. and the relocation etc. due to my c0onfidence as i mentioned before in my journal my confidence was fuelled around drink and drugs, and the west midlands is a massive change in my life for all the right reasons, it will become easier but i understand it is going to be along road. but what ive achieved in 7weeks is more then i have done in years. but i will definately be joining the chat groups.

[oasisourcool6686]

ty for the message, yep im doing well, but has taken alot of work, about myself and budgeting and planning. and big decisions, and i no its going to be along road still, but what ive achieved, such as voluntary work. college etc. its quite hard to get my head round it. but for all the right reasons. its quite like. whoa slow down alittle. lol but its my confidence im working on now. i still suffer from anxiety but i feel that’ll get better within time. and i still use a budget sheet while being in the halfway house, for when im planning out my spend for the week. but if ever you need a chat im always here. just message me and ill get back. but you keep going. as for the music its been a massive passion of mine for years, but i was a waste of space before. and a bit of a tearaway through drugs and drink etc. but if your son is in to music that much when the time is right hill wanna pursue it.

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