This is a fact and the truth. I have lost 3 jobs and was unemployed for 5 months last year. It was a big struggle for me to stay on the job and I do not wish the same thing to happen this year.
10 days has passed on the new job. I have work with 3 other senior at work and everyone have slept on the job. I knew this will be a challenge for me on the job but if I want to keep this job, I need to do whatever it takes to stay awake at work.
I need the job to have the means to provide for the family and service my loans every month.
I will lose about 16 hours a day due to work related activities leaving me with 8 hours or less for sleep, any other activity will eat into my sleeping time and if I eat before I sleep, it will keep me awake, I will struggle to sleep. I am developing discipline for sleeping and I have become less compulsive in eating.
I realized that this new job was a blessing in disguise. Now I can clean myself, eat, sleep on time. I have less distraction every day, I can actually find time to do a little reading, something that I could not do in the past. It has help me to be more discipline and become less compulsive. I can feel that I am slowly developing and growing strength in these areas.
I have added so much fear, stress, worries and anxiety into my life which was the consequences of my gambling, and I have taken for granted and lost my freedom and peace.
I prayed for God given courage to work hard today one day at a time. I felt thankful and grateful for this opportunity.
My wish is simple, it is my dream now if I could carry on these good habits over the last 10 days for the rest of the year. I need to stay focus for the rest of the year.
This light is giving me hope in all the darkness.