[lynn]

This is a new thread for me. I slipped, again, this time the financial damage is small, but really everything else went to hell. I lost around $150 during this crazy binge, normally it would have been thousands. But I have lost everything else I worked so hard for. I need some help, I have missed out on GA for so long. I am desperately trying to rid myself of this sickness. I don’t know what to do anymore, I feel like the biggest loser ever and really hating life. It’s unfair for my family, but I really don’t even want to see them or hear from anymore. I guess I am just really sick in the head.

[lynn]

I went buy back my last check from the casino today. They actually kept it there for months until I have enough to buy it back. It feels good to put it all behind me now. No more reminder of the shady business that was part of a gambling life. I felt uneasy when i was waiting for the cashier to get things ready and had to keep my eyes glued to the TV so I don’t see the actions around me. I’ve learned the hard way that I should never let my guard down with this demon, not even for a second because that’s all it takes.

[lynn]

Yahoo, this would be the 100th post! I don’t have much going on lately, things are looking better. I am ******** my days hoping that I can make it pass 90 days this time. When my mind diverts away from gambling, I see so many other things worth living for. children, movies, cooking, workouts…at some point I used to like doing these and forgot about them when I was occupied with only gambling. Now I am slowly getting back to them. One day at a time, I will not let my guard down with this inner demon.

[Anonyme]

Hi Lynn, I must admitt I dont often read your thread, it is impossible to keep up with everyone as you know. However I came across a very supportive post you left on my thread in January, at that time I was away with the faries, well not literally I hope you understand!
I just wanted to say thank you very much, like many others your support probably fell on deaf ears.Now, however, every ones support eventually penetrated the thick skin of the selfish arrogant gambler i was turning back into..I could never have found the new me with out the kick start my recovery was given by you and many others.
So thank you for helping me, personally I’m not a day counter and dont think its really a good idea, however I appreciate that we all have different methods of coping, and travelling along in our journeys. Well done on your achievements.
Hope you enjoy yet another gamble free day.
Thank you once again.           Geordie.I dont gamble.

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