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I have been on vacation since last Tuesday. I was in groups on Thursday with Charles. He asked to post what I had planned for the weekend for fun. So Friday I went to a local mall to pay bill and look around. Later on had dinner with 2 of my sisters. Company was good but food was so so. On Saturday morning I hit a gamblers anonymous meeting. It was a great way to start the day. From there I did some shopping. So here I sit at local bookstore enjoying a glass of soda while composing this post. I plan on attending another g.a. meeting tonite. I used to attend this one every week but harder to get to these days. No better way to start and end a day. Tomorrow I plan on doing some more shopping and eating lunch out. Nice to be able to enjoy my vacation now that I have money and can afford to do things like this.

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I try and see you next Wednesday. although I will be on phone as I am meeting with gambling counselor and having group next week.

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See you later this week. forgot group was timed.

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Sorry i missed your second group. went to go in after 15 minutes and it was closed have a great and maybe we talk next week.

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Well 2016 is coming to an end and I think part of it has been the best I have ever been in a long time. Thanks to medicine changes and changes in my thinking and attitude. Even though I had some stressors before the holiday Everything went good, in my opinion. I got to see all of my immediate family except one. And I did get to see my nephew on Christmas day as planned. Had a wonderful time. I hope I can continue this upward turn in my recovery.

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I wanted to post here to say that I am still gambling free been a month. Wanted to let everyone know that I won’t be here for groups today. Going to fair called The Big E. Will be spending all day there. So I will see everyone tomorrow (Friday)

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Well, made it home from the cape without stopping at casino. Funny thing though. I never had a thought about gambling, but I knew I had to try to call my sponsor as I promised. So I called her and we talked for a bit. I guess the phone does not weigh 200 pounds…lol

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Thanks maverick. You stay strong too

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better late than never they always say. I did get to my destination without stopping at casino. made the call like i was planning on. still gambling free. well on my way home tomorrow morning. I will be too early to make a call but i will make sure i am in a good frame of mind when i am driving past the area near the casino.

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I am glad i made it this far but my depression is still kicking my butt. Started new med and i know they take a while before i start to feel the effects of it. Just so tired of crying for no reason or just because i watch a sad show. Really been struggling at work but have no choice but to work. If i take off any more time , i am afraid I will lose my job. Was out last year for a while and also out another four days not too long ago. Well thanks for letting me vent.

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Day 8 Still have not gambled. It has been very hard as i have been dealing with some psych issues, but i feel better for not having gambled.

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So still no gambling since last Thursday. Been talking with gambling counselor and had group yesterday. They both helped me. I did not feel like doing anything but my desire to not gamble was stronger so went to those activities. I am more resolved than ever to not gamble again just for today. Not sure if I be at groups today but I will not gamble.

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really having bad urges to gamble but not gonna give in to them. Posting here is one way I am dealing with them. I don’t want to spend another penny on gambling. So many thought going thru my head right now. I almost feel as bad as I did when I first stopped gambling at the casino’s in 2005. So want to be normal again if that is even possible.

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It is normal for the addiction (the Devil as I call it) to mess with you. It wants you to believe you can gamble normally like others can. But we as c.g. Cannot ever gamble normally again just for today. Posting here is a good way to help combat that feeling. I know it helps me.

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Still no gambling but really struggling wanting to escape thru gambling. This darn depression is messing with me. Oh well. Won’t gamble just for today

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