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Thank you velvet.   i am taking one day at a time.  Just for today i will not gamble.

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Thank you harry for the well wishes.   I willkeep up with my recovery

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thank you for posting this Charles. I thought I was not gonna be able to use this site again. Having trouble even trying to post but as long as it is just not me I feel better, I did try to get in today though

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Today we did something we have never done before in my group. We honored a fellow member who had passed away last Thursday. We talked about him and how he made a difference in the group. But he is in a much better place because he was really sick we found out. The family mentioned in his obituary how he had overcome his two addictions. Drinking and gambling. And that they were glad he was making appositive change in his life at the end.

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So the last couple of months have gone really well for me family wise. Saw each and everyone on them over the holidays. It was not always like this. No drama as well. That is rarity in my family. I have been struggling with my recovery these last couple of days. Not doing things I should be doing. So I did a writing on questions 15 and 20 from the twenty questions. Did both negative and positive. where I was and where I am now. I have come along way but still have a ways to go. I still go see my gambling counselor and I attend two groups run by the gambling recovery place I go to. One is geared for woman and one is for everyone. Now I must start my recovery to a deeper level. No more well this is ok but that isn’t.

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My thanksgiving was very good this year. Actually celebrated with two big dinners. one on actual holiday and then again on Saturday my nephew had a nice dinner as well. Love spending time with my family. Hopefully my Christmas will go as well. What makes the dinner with my nephew special, is that for a long time he was not part of any family functions. Even missed a funeral because of his addiction he had. Now he is free of addiction and making me proud. Thanks for listening

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Well just wanted to update people on how i have been doing lately. I have been doing better lately with my struggles of slots on facebook. I have still been playing them but not as much and only 3.00 for a month. that is way good for me. I still am going to my gambling counselor and both of the groups. All in all this is the best I have been doing in a couple of years now

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So i made to my dad’s without a hitch. Only thought i had about gambling while driving to my dad’s was when i passed the exit for the casino that i am banned from. and that thought was gee look at all those suckers going to lose there money. Just wanted to let you know charles and anyone else who knows i was going.

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So things have been going crazy for me these past couple of weeks. I have turned another year older, and feel like I turned 10 yrs older. Things with my gambling recovery have been very hectic. But hopefully things are finally going to settle down were I go for counseling and a couple of groups. Only took them a couple of months to finally move all the furniture in so we can finally start meeting again on Wednesday for my recovery group. I did finally meet with someone and tell them how I felt about the change and what I get out of the program(was worried they gonna cut long timers out of the program). All this craziness with my recovery is affecting my life. I think that is why I am stressing so much.

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Thanks for the suggestion I did it. read my reply to vera and see what I am doing.

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My gambling counselor is taking care of something like that. She has asked me if I would talk to higher ups to help them understand what I get out of it. she is also asking other longer timers as well. If anything will get results that will. So I think that will have to do. Thanks for supporting me vera.

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Within the last two weeks I have had some changes in my life. Not sure what it gonna be involved in one of the changes. May mean just location of gambling program I attend or it could mean that all the long time members might be discharged out of the program totally. Which includes me. Really not sure what is going to happen. Really worried and stressed about it. Never did make that call Charles. Feel I am still too upset to call and express my feelings properly. So I have decided not to call for the time being.

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Thanks for the post. I love what it says.

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Fear-it looks like a very evil black mass. It has no real shape. IT has very evil eyes. It’s stench is fowl smelling. The eyes seem to speak to me saying, “I want to drain all the fearlessness out of you. They also say, “I want to make you so afraid that you will not try anything new. This is only way i could repost it

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I did end up doing some shopping on sunday. Went to my favorite place i love to shop at. It is called The christmas tree Shop. I had a good lunch out as well. Had a nice tender pork chop and baked potato. I also hit several other stores and another mall as well. So all in all my weekend went well and i really enjoyed myself. I have not done something like this in a long time. All because i no longer go to casino am i able to do this

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