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Hi Kathryn!
Salina here…yep unfortunately I am back and really need some one to chat with…ughhhhh how on earth did you every make it this far.? I am so impressed to know that it can be done…hugsthis to shall pass

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unfortunately I am back…could use some support..so so tired of all this!
 this to shall pass

[salina]

Hi Bettie!
Salina!!!!! I sure could use a chat!! Long time huh? I’m in deep and so discouraged!  Hope u are well….hugs
 this to shall pass

[salina]

hi bettie! salina here…. i am back unfortunately  tried to talk on chat tonight no one there  i just missed you  hugs…salinathis to shall pass

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ahh geez bettie.. thanks for hangin in there with me all this time. I know I have really sucked at the posting thing
but you have been there for me and i so so appreciate it and yes for today i have a whole new gpsthis to shall pass

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Sorry Bettie I havent felt like posting. I am gamble free for 3 weeks but honestly I dont feel like posting and havent. I am so so grateful for you and others here please stay with me.. I will try to get  it together and start posting.. thanks for being there. I am so proud of you . You sound like u are doing great.this to shall pass

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Hi Bettie!
Sorry it’s taken so  long to post. I’m just not feeling like it but I know I need to. I am sitting here, Monday evening, watching the cats clean themselves and wondering if it could all be just that simple!  My life is really starting to reap the consequences of my behavior.. I dont know how long I can keep up.
As for your post and your words, well yes it is all so true.. life is really your body and like it says the temple. I hope that you are treating your temple with respect that it so well deserves. Laughing,playing and resting are all part of the respect.
I have trouble with the whole respecting myself and valuing it. From what I understand your health is the most valuable asset you have.. and we as cgs have forgotten that.. I am hoping that someday, just someday I will remember and act on that fact..
Thanks for listening and being there. Everytime I go online I know Bettie will be there and thats a good thing!
I will be here tomorrow night for group hope you will be there too!
 this to shall pass

[salina]

Wow kathryn!
I feel so horribly selfish. You are struggling with just everyday life and I feel for you. I cant believe I am worrying about myself when someone who has helped me to this point has suffering that I didnt even take the time to consider.I apologize for always talkin bout "me" pretty disgusting.. I hope and pray your back and your physical condition betters.
 this to shall pass

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ahh how are u doing my friend? I hope things are going well with you. Please let me know how u are doing, I really think bout you often and pray that everything is ok;this to shall pass

[salina]

Hi bettie
just wanted to stop in a see how u are doing..hows the banning going? New baby I hear how exciting…
thinkin of ya this to shall pass

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Hi Bettie
Sorry I have been really lousy at keeping in touch. I have to admit since I banned I havent felt as desperate as I was and its no excuse as I know I need to keep in touch with you all.
I missed chat on sat cause i was at a production and etc…. anyhow, as you know i was chat on sun but hubby kept comin in so finally i just gave up.
I am doing good for today..not that I havent thought and plotted how I could possible still gamble,,the  nice thing is I banned. It makes it so much easier as I know you are finding out. 
It sounds like your friend is understanding about your banning and is respectful enough to not entise you by inviting you out to gamble.. that is great. I find that I try not to even talk about it with the girl I usually go with and like your friend she does not know yet that she is a cg. You know it and I know it, but they havent gotten there yet so time will take care of that. Its not for us to try to make them see it right? We have to work on us and maybe it is a good thing for our recovery to watch their progression? Sounds mean in a way, but this is where I am at.
Hope we can chat this evening in group. I plan on being there. See ya there? this to shall pass

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oh Bettie
I am doing the happy dance for you!! i am so so happy for you. I cannot believe it I had to read it again. Wow, we will have to keep together on this thing. As it is new for me and now you.  Ohhhh I am so so fricken happy for you…please talk to me this week  I cannot tell you how proutd i am and how rewarded i feel just knowing that you have gone through so darn much to get where you are today, and that just maybe just maybe, I could have been part of that change for youthis to shall pass

[salina]

hmm bettie
i read your post
i am not the best person to talk to right now but i do know that you are on you are on your way to being able to self exclude. I just know it. Its just a matter of time and you will be posting about how it "wasnt that bad". I will wait bettie and be here with open arms to embrace the moment with you/.
So be it…this to shall pass

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i blew itthis to shall pass

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So hi Bettie!
I guess you are just not ready to quit!  When you are you will know. It makes things so much easier to self ban. I know I am new at this self exclude thing, but for today it really has helped my train of thought. Its not an option for me to gamble and I like it. 
You will see what I mean cause I know you are right behind me…and I am here rooting for you.
 this to shall pass

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