[redtwentythree]

This is my first time posting to this forum so i’m not really sure where to start

basically… I love gambling, i love playing blackjack and pretty much all I can think about is playing BJ…

I have a decent paying job, I make around 60k a year and i’m a single middle aged man,

when i first started playing BJ i would play the low limit 10 and 15 dollar tables and only bring a few hundred dollars with me, I would double the few hundred dollars and walk out of the casino so estatic and so happy…

now as time went on I started winning more and more and losing more and more higher wagers, now that i’ve gotten lucky a few times and won thousands of dollars (most 10k ever won) it seems as if I just cant ever walk away a winner now because i;m not satisfied with winning a “small amount”

I see myself walking into the casino with larger amounts of money (life savings) and playing the 100 dollar min tables when I shouldnt be going anywhere near them

recently i’ve gotten really lucky and won maybe 20k within a few days, i went in and won almost every day… now i cant even play a smaller table, i get no satisfaction from playing or winning anything less then 5 thousand dollars..

so within the last week i’ve went and lost EVERY TIME…i cannot get ahead, i’ve given them back all of my winnings along with half of my life savings, I feel terrible and i just want to make my money back. i keep regretting doing this, all i want to do is go and play but i’m not going to be happy with a small win

i lay in bed thinking of all the hours it would take to make that money back at my normal job, and calucate how i would need to budget and how its imposible to save that kind of money with the bills I have…

I guess the moral of the story is i forgot what the true value of money was because I was living some stupid fantasy trying to win and wager more than I could handle…

now what 🙁

[vera]

Hi Red23 and welcome to GT.
“Now what?” is a good question.
We have two choices when we come to a crossroad. Keep going forward or turn back.
In the Gambling World, if we keep going forward, we are destined to lose everything.
If we turn back, it means leaving everything we lost behind us and walking away. It’s a very tough walk. We are bound to keep thinking of and regretting our loss . The lure to win it back is what keeps the casino owners living multi-millionaire life styles and sadly it is what brings the compulsive gambler to his/her knees.
You did well reaching out for help Red. I too, am a middle aged woman who poured all my hard earned money into slot machines , plus all I could borrow on the strength of my salary and today all I am left with is massive debt.
My advice to you Red23 is WALK AWAY . NOW.
You will NEVER get even a fraction of your money back. All those big “wins” are just “high interest loans” to keep you sucked in. The planners of the Gambling Industry employ top psychologists to study and suss out the addictive brain and every day , they come up with new methods to draw us back. Gambling is a progressive disease. We will never overcome it by tying to “win our wait out”. Believe me, I tried and failed
When you get over the shock of losing your money, other losses will flash across your mind . Losses like friendships, family relationships, pride, trust, self esteem etc etc. These are the REAL losses!
Gambling has the power to take everything from a CG.
Personally, I have given it enough.
For today, I will walk away.
I hope you do, too!
Thank you for sharing your story.
Keep posting.

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