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Hi all,
My name is Ice Magnet. I am a compulsive gambler. I am not proud of this. I am also being treated for severe depression and alcohol abuse. I find myself to have a very addictive personality. I cannot seem to stop myself from doing things like gambling, even when I’m not enjoying them.
I have no house, no savings, cannot work due to my depression and still find a way to gamble with my social security payments. I have racked up a $7500 credit card debt from gambling.
I hate myself a lot of the time I am gambling. I am filled with guilt and shame and scared that someone I know will see me playing the pokie machines. One night, I lost $2000 on pokie machines and online poker. I was quite intoxicated and depressed at the time that I was gambling. When that final card landed on my computer screen which meant $800 just vanished something snapped inside me. I tried to kill myself immediately after. Thank God I was unsuccessful.
I want to stop. Completely. I am tired of the plethora of emotions I feel about gambling and I never want to be in such an awful situation again.
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