[sarahluna88]

I have the hardest time of my life since the last two years. My energy is nearly gone and my perspective for future isnt available to see for me. A few members of my family died in a short period of time, my father is ice cold harded, doesnt matter how friendly i am. My mother is the only one left. My brother dont talks a word, all people that gave me some stabile ground in the past are gone. My gambling drove me in very deep problems making me cry nearly every day. I gave my Partner the controll over my finances, i saw no other option anymore. I want to come back here daily out of the hope it gives me some stability.
Thank you for reading.
Sarah

[sarahluna88]

Today i was in Hungary, after crying in the evening yesterday, i had a good sleep, first since long time. I went to breakfast in the little hotel at 7.30 and it felt good. Such a feeling i have lost for a very long time. Than i went out to walk along the river and i realized again the fresh air and the light of the sun. I felt alive somehow after so much time and nearly giving up in life. I hope some of these moments will stay with me

• This reply was modified 3 months, 4 weeks ago by sarahluna88.

[sarahluna88]

Today i started a big clean up operation in my Email Account. Ive subscribed to hundreds of casino offer pages. I am so extreme in trying to get free bonuses when ive run out of money that i have registered by nearly every exising casino at casinoguru. Today i wrote about 60 emails for selfexclusion and unsubscribing from mailing lists. I will go on with it until i get all cleaned up. I dont know from where this energy is coming that i have at the moment for doing that,but i am very thankful for that. I hope it comes a day when i left all that behind me and found my place in this world.

If Kin is still here, i would be happy to read from him.

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[iamhere]

Hi Sarah 😊

I hope you’re still going strong on your journey. Things get easier, joy can return and life fill back with colour.

Reading your words reminded me of the despair that this addiction brings, don’t let yourself forget the feeling, it’s what will keep you from going back. ❤️

I hope you’re still enjoying the sunshine 🌞

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