[Mama2]

I am 53 a wife mother nurse and a compulsive gambler. My world is online slot…that’s it, nothing else. I look normal, hold down a job eat dinner with my family, laugh at their jokes but all I want to do is gamble. It consumes me. Yesterday my world came crashing in after living this way for years…my home maybe going into foreclosure because of my gambling. I am 4 months behind innpayments…my lawyer isctrying to see if I can claim a chapter 13 to secure the home. It’s a disaster…my husband has absolutely no idea. My life has been one huge lie and now I am paying for it. I am terrified of losing everything and everyone I love because if my compulsion. I am on a drug called Mirapex that may cause compulsive addictive behavior…I just found this info out yesterday. I am scared if what my future holds. Very scared

[velvet]

Hello Mama and thanks for starting a thread in the Gambling Therapy forums

Here at Gambling Therapy we pride ourselves on being a caring and diverse online community who can help and support you with the difficulties you’re currently facing. We understand that this might be a tough time for you, particularly if you’re new to recovery, so come here as often as you need to and participate in the forums, access online groups and connect to the live advice helpline if you need one to one support. We’re in this together!

Here on the forum you can share your experiences in a safe, supportive and accepting environment. The beauty of writing it all down is that you can take your time and you will be creating a record of your progress that you can look back on if it ever feels like you’re not moving forward. So, share as much or as little as you like but do try to stick to keeping just one thread in this forum so people know where to find you if they want to be updated on your progress or share something with you.

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And on that note….

I’m going to hand you over to our community because I’m sure they will have some words of wisdom for you 🙂

Take care

The Gambling Therapy Team

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[Ryan123678]

Hi
I lost everything on online slots aswell and thought there was no hope. This website really helped reading others advice and stories. Can you tell your husband I think a lot of people on here will agree it it a big relief once we tell somebody what we are going through. Have you put barriers in place to stop further gambling. Stay strong and keep us updated how you are getting on.

[i-did-it]

Hi Mama

I felt compelled to answer your post as I felt as frantic as you six months ago. You have some really hard things to do but you can do it.
As your home is threatened and your husband will find out then anyway, just take a deep breath and tell him. Even if he shouts and screams it is better than losing your home.
I found this really hard to do (took me a decade) but here I am six months later and instead of worrying about losing my home I am thinking about painting it. Life can change very quickly once we stop.

Your husband can take over control of all money leaving you a small amount to live on. That means all accounts and all cards. No tiny secret debt or amount kept back (I tried this)

Another thing which helped me was ordering a new bank card and getting my husband to scratch off the last three numbers on the back so I can gamble online – it still works in shops.

I too was obsessed – it felt I would never be able to stop. I was completely distracted both at home and at work.

I have read about that drug you mentioned and I understand this might make it more difficult for you to stop. Perhaps you could put Gamban on your internet devices – I have it on my phone.

Also try to attend the groups on here or chat on the helpline .
There is lots of help available .
Can I ask which country you live in.?

[i-did-it]

correction. The bank card thing should say so I can’t gamble on line

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