[movingfoward101]

Thank you for reading my post. This forum has been very helpful when I am in need of support, just through the post on here and knowing that others are struggling too.

I am 29 years old and have been dealing with this addiction probably since my early to mid twenties. I started like everyone else just taking a couple hundred and being able to have some fun. I gradually bet more and more. Fast forward to today and over those 8 or 9 years I have lost in the neighborhood of 45K or so. I have always been financially responsible, but when it comes to gambling I am not. It doesn’t seem like real money and I get caught up in winning my loses back and getting more and more. I realize now that this has to stop and even winning some won’t solve my problems. I will always want more.

I have a good job and always pay my bills. I am a pretty typical adult with some credit card debt (not direct gambling) a car payment, student loan payments, rent, etc. The money I gamble with has always been my money. I have a savings account and retirement account. A savings account that should and will have a much higher balance.

I know I will make this money back and am motivated to move forward to recover. I know I can do it. I have gone months without gambling before. I came to this conclusion after a series of bad casino visits where I would lose a couple thousand and it finally came to a head when I lost a little over 5k in one trip.

I have taken steps to limit my access to money and am seeking counselors in my area. I also have friends that will support me in these efforts and understand what I am trying to do.

This last trip really hurts and is still fresh as it was just this weekend. But I am looking forward to making April 24, 2017 my day 1 and my last day one. I have read this site frequently, but haven’t posted and am hoping that this post creates some accountability on my part. Thank you for your advice and support and I look forward to sharing my journey with you.

[charles]

Hi Movingforward, well done on looking for help. Also well done on the steps that you have already taken.

You have stopped for months at a time in the past so know that you can stop. This time USE those months, get inot the habit of using support here and elsewhere. This time in a few months tome you will still be here posting and gaining strength, still have those barriers in place.

Keep posting and let us know the positive steps that you are taking.

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