[tashamcneil90]

Hi everyone I have finally registered here after weeks of reading on this site. I have gotten to a stage now where I am filled with anxiety I feel sick most if the time especially shortly after gambling. I only have an issue online. I only use my phone and not any blocking systems for android. I feel so terrible and I can’t tell my husband as he will leave me. I am so worried about losing him. I am sitting here putting everything out there in the hopeople that someone can help me. I have been battling trying to end gambling for a year now and I have been able to go anything from a few weeks to 2 whole months but it seems when I get down i turn back to it. It has became my escape from life. I feel like it’s the only thing that is enjoyment in my life. We don’t go anywhere or do anything really together. My husband is the most amazing person and amazing father to our children. And I feel like I am throwing all that in his face with this horrid secret. But I can’t lose my family I just can’t. He battled a gambling addiction for 4 years when he was younger aswell. Not whilst he was with me but I just can’t tell him I know it will end us. Please please someone help. I haven’t gotten into any debt or missed any payments so people may think oh it’s really not that bad. But to me it’s turning my life into a living hell I struggle to sleep I wake up feeling sick alot. This is the first time I have admitted this to anyone and for some reason I find myself crying while typing this I feel like a lost cause.

[jen3]

I understand being afraid to tell your husband but if he battle the addiction himself he will understand better than anyone. You might just be surprised at his reaction if you tell him the truth. ??

[tashamcneil90]

I cant I really really can’t risk losing him. I just want to get through and over this without adding all this stress and worry to him aswell. 🙁

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