[kosvas90]

Hi,
I am new here and I really hope this time I will quit for life. A little bit about me. 35 years old with loans, wonderful girlfriend who still support me and believes in me (even i don’t know why) and with divorced parents. I was always between my mom and dad – they were arguing all the time but after their divorce i was the messenger between them. So when I had the chance I just left my country and went to live in England. But young and alone in New country – guess what happened. Not long after my new begging in life with new place, new job and new “friends ” i realized that my salary is far from enough for all my needs for girls, bars and so on. So one of my “friends” took me one night to a gambling place (not exactly casino) and guess what… I won! So we went to a club. I figured this will help me to have enough money for the “good stuff”. LIE #1 that led me to today’s reality. The story is long and continues embarrassing if you ask me, but at the end of it an angel came into my life – my beautiful girl. She was the first person who made me feel like I have home and family (something i never had). She found out about my gambling after 1 year of our relationship. I was so afraid that she will leave me… I begged. But she said that she is a warrior and she never quit. So we started to look for different options for help. I had some short time success after that relapse and again and again. The problem was that I couldn’t understand why does this happen. Then she (as I said my guardian angel) realized that I need some deep and pragmatic explanation and some concrete steps so I can start the fight. She found a book “Gamblex:life on the line” and gave it to me. Believe me this was a life-changing. At last I realized what to do, why I did all the stupid things and I could build a concrete plan. After that we blocked everything on my phone with Gamban, I gave her all my cards and my ID, and I started second job and workouts. It is already for 67 days that I don’t bet but I feel different from before. This book is on my desk always and I re-read some pages almost every day. This time I understand myself and I find my own strategies to fight back on the addiction. My angel saved me with one book… I don’t think that my journey is over. It is just the beginning. But I believe it will work this time for the rest of my life.

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