[nonna1984]

Well i am new to this site, i started online gambling about a year ago, after i heard my cousin won £5 000 on online slots. i thought wow i might have a go! well now im here. i have got myself in debt. My debts are about £6000 now, but i am 10 yes 10 days gambling free now. Have self excluded myself from every site i know! which was quite theraputic. All i feel is anger and hate towards the gambling now, when i see adverts and pop ups come on computer i feel so much anger, not because i want to play because i hate how it destroys peoples lives, including mine! You can be from any background and it sucks you in and that’s it. But i refuse it, today i remembered two sites i didnt self exclude myself from and i logged in and instead of playing had a real satisfaction going on online chat and self excluding myself, which i found betway most difficult from, the advisor asked so many questions, i explained from the beginning what i wanted. It was like they wanted me to deposit and keep me waiting on chat. I have founded thinking of GAMBLING as a person thats hurt me so much, that i hate them so badly, that i dont want anything to do with them, well IT when it pops in my head. The reason i thought of a person as when you think of online gambling you feel the moneys not real, and trying to associate the whole word gambling as a person made it more real for me! think about it once a day now, and every day that goes by that gets easier and easier. I think of each deposit as a CURSE instead of happiness as it will only make you lose everything! Only after 10 days i feel like a human again! not a robot pressing SPIN constantly! Its going to be a long journey but i see a light at the end of the tunnel… because i have made up my own methods of trying to distract myself from online gambling. I dont know if my methods work for anyone else? as they have been working for me.

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