[rjm01]

I’m a 39-year old married mother of 2.  My children are 13 & 14 years old.  I have been married for 6 years.  As I look back on the past few years I realize that my gambling addiction began about 2yrs ago.  But until just recently, I didn’t even realize that I had a problem.  My husband is a recovering drug addiction.  And I always felt as if he had the problem, not me.  So what if I wanted to go to the casino a blow some money.  What’s the big deal.  That was my way of dealing with all of the stresses of life.  He blew so much money on drugs.  At least what I was doing was legal.  I let myself believe that long enough, that my escape from reality developed into an addiction.
Finacially, my family and I are surviving.  My husband doesn’t work.  But I make enough money that we shouldn’t be just surviving…we should be thriving.  I realize this and I want to make a change before I ruin everything for us.  I can see that if I don’t deal with my gambling addiction it will ruin us.  My husband and I argue over my gambling and his drug use…which I think he is still struggling with. But I can’t worry about his drug use right now.  I have my own addiction to deal with.
I’ve been attending a recovery class.  Tonight will be my third class.  I hope that my husband will be there.  I have asked him to come for the past two weeks.  But he hasn’t made it yet.
I really haven’t had a support group…that is why I am reaching out to GamblingTherapy.  My children, my husband and I don’t deserve what I am turning our lives in to.  With help from others, I know I can do this. 

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