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I started gambling compulsively nearly 10 years ago. I managed to stop around 3 years ago and found that very quickly my life started to come back to me. I paid off £17000 in debts, much quicker than I ever thought I could, moved to a nice house, went travelling all over the world and surprised myself with some amazing physical achievements (for me!)

But… I started again a few months ago and I don’t know why. I baffle myself with my stupidity and kick myself. I really want to stop again but I keep acting on impulse. My problem is with online gambling. I installed betfilter the last time and that really worked but now there are a multitude of mobile casinos. I spent 2 days a couple of months ago, joining up and then self excluding from new casinos but there are still more opening up. Whenever i feel the urge, I just google “new casinos” and even if there is only the one, it is still enough to destroy me. I have gone from being completely debt free and with savings, to now being in £20000 of debt. again. I know that i will be able to get out of it, but only if i stop. the betfilter is great but there is nothing that really works on the mobile. I need a smartphone for work so i can’t get a basic one without internet, i tried gamblock but it didn’t work and just killed my phone, i don’t know what else to do. I asked someone to help me with my finances (as in keep my card, check my statements etc) but they said no.

I know I am going to have to work on the way I think about gambling, triggers,distraction techniques etc but right now, something to physically stop me, at least for a little while, is what I need, but am out of ideas. I would be grateful for any suggestions.

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