[jaspercasper]

Hey guys just hear to rant a little feeling down and out, had a read over quite a few of your guys posts and said screw it imma make an account seems like a good place kinda like virtual GA. I was always told by my dad as a kid never ever gamble he was quite serious about this like smoking cigarettes and gambling were on par for him so I paid attention, never gambled a penny untill I was 20 (I’m 28 now) I tell a lie actually because the last day when I was thinking about the compulsion of gambling for me I thought back to being 14 and there uses to be claw games in the shopping malls with teddy’s that had 20quid attached to them, I lost 17euro trying to get 20 and so remember not being able to stop once id started and this was a Saturday in town with my friends I couldve bought food or gotten up to trouble with my friends which would have a been alot more enjoyable,and there was actually another time that year now that I think of it but not so compulsive I was on holidays with my mom in turkey and she thought me how to play 5 card draw I won 20 euro and then she won all 300e of my holiday money damn it must have been somewhat compulsive now that I think of it but you know I probably thought she would give it back, lol it took her 3 days she really let me think about my actions a bit I was crying and moaning for hours, anyways, the first time I really gambled as I said I was 20 and my friend introduced me to online poker , at this point in my life I had about 20k saved from all different types of menial jobs Id done over the years I was extremely good with money in fact I was like a bank to my friends which was annoying but they always paid me back they were very good albeit poor friends.i put 20e in online poker lost it said ya know maybe higher stakes is better more invested put in 50e and within an hour was up to 500e I was ecstatic I’d never have to work again I told myself if even I can earn 10 percent and hour of what I just did there I’d be making 50e and hour and be set for life playing a game I actually fairly liked. Oh how I was wrong lost that 500 in 20 mins followed by about 1200e the next day very depressing times. Then I went to the real casino with said friend and played poker there just 20 or 50 e tournaments which I could hardly hold the cards I was so nervous about losing 50e haha after not much time at all I was there every second or third night I’d win I’d lose I’d win I’d lose but definitely more losing than winning I told myself I’ll get poker books and study it’s a game of luck and skill atleast I’m not playing against the house well ya that kinda worked atleast it made my mind rational 6 years later I was down about 50 thousand euro damn. And if things didn’t get worse I found out about crypto oh great made a couple thousand on safe bets like bitcoin and Ethereum but then found out I could bet money on crypto meme coins which are extremely volatile and hold no intrinsic value what so ever made about 4k in an hour I was well and truly hooked went on to obv lose that 4k back with about another 15k on top so said screw that and left it, then I was brought into a bookies by a friend only a year ago , never played roulette or black jack or bet on horses in my life I know gamblers always say they’re in control but I really did like to think well atleast I’m going to play a game were atleast I have the possibility of being in control even tho wasn’t strong willed or good enough to be, but man this roulette wheel grabbed me so damn hard and the black jack aswell that’s where the real hardcore compulsion came into play I couldn’t stop I’d lose 2.5k several times in minutes couldn’t let something so simple get the better of me just in the last year I’m down over 15k in bookies and Casino on bj and roulette betting 500e at a go sometimes and I’d always start at 20 or 50 euro but I ce the first bet is lost that’s it double the be and double the bet and double the bet , must recoup this hard earned money and I’m only working f for 15e an hour which is madness to gambling so much anyways about 3 months ago I lost 4k I’d saved for a few months In less than hour and I started with a 5er bet was so depressed I came up with a story to borrow 4k from my mom so I could buy a car id seen lost it all in a week back on crypto no car to be seen and a very pissed off mother, never been so depressed in my life I was always the one with plenty of money and always responsible now I’m in debt to my mom through gambling I’ve lied to my mother the person I love the most in the world and its tearing me up I’ve paid her back half so far but damn I’ve tried to win back money that I should just be giving her imagine owing your struggling mom 2k and your just coming out of a casino at 8 in the morning down 1200, something needs to stop now I’ve gone to ga but damn the amount they go on about god I just can’t hack it, next step is to ban myself from casino live and online, like I can go months with gambling but once I’ve a fiver on and I’ve lost it must be retrieved at all cost and it buries me in the dirt 95 percent if the time ,anyways thanks for listening to my ted talk haha twas a long one but very greatful for the ones who slogged through and give some feedback and maybe this wee story might help someone like the stories I’ve read before it.

[iamhere]

Hi Jaspercasper,

Well congrats, you are a compulsive gambler. You’re not alone, what you should be afraid of is this being your whole life story, and it very well can be if you don’t make the changes you need to.

You’re 28, you could live another 70 years. Choose to live them gamble free. You should know by now, you’ll never win, no amount will be enough, we will ALWAYS lose.

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