[wrightm_72]

Unfortunately I failed to post anything just the title. This is my second try. My name is Michael and I am a compulsive gambler. I am 39 and I have gambled in one form or another since I was 17. I like most other problem gamblers have a compulsive nature so I have lost at the casino, cards, sport betting and on horse and dog racing. But my achilles heal is the the horse and dog racing. I am unable to abstain from a flutter. Unfortunately, a flutter becomes a binge where I always lose my shirt one to two thousand dollars at a time. I joked with a counsellor that this binge is cyclic every 2-3 months because I binge and then must pay the creditor I borrowed money from so once this occurs I chase the big dream, the adrenalin rush my drug of choice gambling.
This is the sinister nature of this affliction, today after blowing $1800 over the weekend I feel remorse, anger desperation and frustration but prior to having that first wager I don’t even contemplate the ramifications of having that first bet, why? I am an addict a junky and with money in my bank account I am out of control. I am unable to control the urge to bet even though the outcome I know will be the same. I have to stop the voice in my head that keeps assuring me a little flutter won’t hurt but $50 always ends in a grand.
My name is Michael and I am a compulsive gambler and I have a sinister destructive disease that I really need help with. I am here at GH because I have hit rock bottom and I need help like I need air to breath because if I don’t stop now the addiction will end with me taking my own life. Yesterday was my first day bet free and today I will pray and hand it over to my higher power to carry me through today and worry about tomorrow, tomorrow and live one day at a time and if need be one hour or one minute at a time to abstain from betting and to fight against the urge. Thanks for allowing me to post.

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