[franko]

Hi people, Im new too this, I’ve NEVER been too meeting and I’ve never really admitted I have a Gambling Problem!! But I think I do, I have been Gambling for 2 years on and off I stop for a couple of months and go back into it!! It all started with my friend taking me too the bookies and I had a wee shot of the Roulette machine, now I have an addictive nature as it is! I won £80 with my first spin I was thrilled that rush I got when I won was amazing I felt super excited I was hooked!!, for 2 weeks I kept winning I got up too £600 and thats when it went all wrong, I put my first big bet on £50 on red!! Lost, I only had £50 on me so I went too the cash machine and took out more money, lost again, then I took out what I had in my bank £300 notes!! I couldnt lose that (so I thought) I put £300 spin on I always remember I covered most off the board apart from one number! number 10, guess what came in number 10, I felt like was going too burst into tears, I left the bookies and when I got outside I was physically sick, I went home and got the rest off my money had in the house around about £500, I was so determined too win my money back, I lost it all every penny, I spent my rent money and my sons maintenance money I had to phone my girlfriend and explain what had happened, I promised I wouldnt do it again!! I stopped for 2 months, but I was bored one night and Paddy Power had a wee deal on hooked again on Roullette for a month I played and won a few but lost more £2578 gone in a month, my Girlfriend paid off my Overdraft and I paid her back I promised I wouldnt do it again!! Wrong I went too the bookies again lost £200 and the pawned my Jewellery My tag watch my gold ring and my 21st birthday present a gold Bracelet I got a lowly £450 for it all and I gambled it away I was hooked again!! After that I barred myself from Ladbrooks and William Hill I phoned up Paddy Power Super casino all the sites I was using and barred myself from there, I stopped for a few months until 4 months ago ive just paid off my gambling debt things where going well I had a beautiful Girlfriend, promotion at work and a decent bonus, I suffer from depression and the gambling when I was winning was helping me, after christmas I got dumped it hurt so I jumped on the bandwagon again and ive been gambling ever since everyday for 4 months Ive been gambling and stuffing my face, Ive stopped going too the gym stopped working as hard, taking sick days, I feel sh*t!! The thing is im up just now by £1800 but these last few days have been bad and ive been putting £1000 spins and I cant afford it, at the start off the year I had saved £5000 now ive hardly got anything I go to the bookies at lunch time from work, after work and I go home and go on the online casino Ive not won for 5 days now and today I lost £900 im worried again that I wont stop until I have nothing left!! im in the situation where I have not spend my last but I just want too jump on that online roulette machine and get that big win, I know wont come, Its funny im strict with my money when it comes too clothes, foo, holidays etc I watch what im spending but with gambling il quite happily keep putting money on those bloody roulette machines Well thanks for readingI do feel better actually writing this out, sorry its a bit too long, any ideas would be great, I gambling today was the last straw losing £900 I dont really have, such a waste I feel ill and I now realise I need help Thanks Dean Lifes hard Dont make it any Harder!!
Lifes hard Dont make it any Harder!!

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