[mak6]

I wasn’t finished my first entry when I accidentally hit send.

I spent all the money I had today. I owe over $1000 to friends. All from one day. I don’t know what to do.

I’ve always been the ‘capable, outgoing, smart’ person to the outside world. I have always felt high expectations to be that person. People still think I am that person. But I’m not. I’m tired. I’m gambling. I am the opposite of what anyone thinks I am and I haven’t told anyone.

It makes me feel horrible.

Yet all I can think about is trying again tomorrow to hopefully get the money back.

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