[sjc1]

I have very recently admitted to myself and a Counsellor that I am a gambling addict. It’s the first step for me in trying to stop. I’m so guilty about all the money I owe. I’m just about paying my credit cards but I dont know how long I can keep it going. I haven’t told anyone else – not even a close friend because I feel so guilty, stupid, ashamed etc. I just cant believe how utterly addicted I am. I can sit and fantasise about all the big wins, all the debts I’ll pay off with my big wins etc. I know this is just pure fantasy but I cant stop. I am taking it every day. I’m trying to spend on a positive thing ie. a course, buying something for myself or someone else as a treat, just choosing to spend on something not gambling. I want to stop thinking about gambling all day long. My business has suffered and so has just about every other aspect of my life. I WANT MY LIFE BACK.

[2121ezzo]

I hear you. I think about my next win, how I will pay all my debt and start afresh. It’s a dream, not a reality. Reality is getting our lives back by never gambling again… I just want to be normal.

[bakiri]

Hello 2121ezzo,
I feel your struggle as I find myself in the same situation, I want to let you know that you have my support and prays, don’t think of yourself as something different than a normal person, casino’s give millions for psychological researches on how to addict us and we are just manipulated, we think of euphoria as happiness, but it’s not, that feeling makes us happy, but we are not rational, we need to find peace with everything that surrounds us and this is how we will find true happiness. Thinking about the losses and how to gain them back by depositing is again manipulation, forget about the money, money is not everything, you can sleep 5hours a day work 3 jobs and gain a lot of money, set up mental/professional goals for the near/far future and chase them.
I am here for you my friend.
Best wishes,

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