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 Hi its me again,its been along time since i return to this site.I thought i was strong,but i was wrong i am not strong enough to say no to gambing. I  cannot quite . I ve been gambling again starting the same cycle over and over again ,the reason is  i thought i could actually control myself but the answer is no and i know this. I ve been gambling again every week if i had the chance .I ve applied for self eclusion but this is useless. Casino operators dont care .They dont check .They dont id anyone .All they want is to get me hook again .Ive gambling for the past 20 yrs from card games to l ottery ,you name it ive done it,but for the past week ive been gambing .Its frustrating how i would win in the beginning and ended loosing my winnings  and on top of that loosing my hard  earned money.I thought i could make a living out of gambling because i have been winning but what is going on inside me is greed wanting more and more like a heroin addict .I ve but i ve lost all of it and also lost a lot  of my money.I am confused and depress on what to should i just go back there maybe recover my losses . I know the answer is no but i am always being lured in the same position if only i have self control i would have made a lot of money ,i am weak and out of control .I am sure this time i would just guit gambling even lottery tickets and scratchers i will stop it .I and sure most of people who have the same problems as me are looking for that last bet or last win that could change my life or anybodys life.Its like the lottery you never know.but for me its just drastic .My problem gambling really got to me 4 yrs ago when i won 50.ooo dollars playing black jack. This gave me a extraordinary feeling but in the end i was the looser because not only did i give it back i ended up loosing more than that what i ve won plus my savings.ended up putting my name on the self exclusion list but the casinos are no help ,,,they know me they still allow me to gamble they dont check the only time i ve got busted is when i try to cash  a personal check at resorts casino ,but what did they do nothing they just told me to leave and told me if they see me again i ll be in deep trouble ,they even told me that they will forward this matter to the casino control commission but nothing happened i am still in and out of the casinos for the past 5 yrs now…So please help,,,i need advise on what to do . I  ve been working on the same job for 20 yrs waiting to retire in 5 yrs but i think i cannot because if i do i think ill just gamble away my retiirement check every month ,,,but i will try to start again tomorrow, start quitting day one again tomorrow….so anybody out there please give me advise thanks for the better

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