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I have been gamblings for a 7-8 years. It wasnt bad back then I knew my limits. Just recently like 2 years ago I have been spending alot of money on the vlt’s (Video lottery terminals) to a point where I dont have money for my bills or rent. I try to do it myself thinking you can make it up next payday and stay away from those vlt’s. But it does not happen and I am thinking that I can just spend a small amount to win it big and just walk away. It does not happen. Like today at lunch I paid little amounts on my credit card, & utilities bills I was going to use the rest to pay my rent and end up with a few dollars in my pocket. But like an idiot I was I listen to that little voice in my head and told myself to just spend 100 dollars and see if we can big. Well that did not work out I spent all my rent and have nothing in my pocket man I hate my life. I sat down infront of my computer thinking what the hell was I doing this is not me. So instead on searching for more payday loan company to bail me out I just admitted to myself that I need more help maybe from people out there with similiar problems that we can help each other. So I google’d for help and found this website I hope with your help I can kick the devil off my back and walk with my head held high.
Sorry I talk on I just feel so down on myself. I wrote this just after I lost 900 at the VLT’s I dont need this I hate those machines.

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