[stilltime]

Hi community. I’ve been dumb, dumb, dumb and out of control with my gambling and it’s been getting worse. I still haven’t destroyed my life so there’s still time for me but I feel if I continue my current path, it won’t end well.

[Pea]

Well done on coming here, its really hard at first to admit we have a problem and thats often the first step needed, then reaching out for help.
Gambling sucks the life out of us, I’m early days too but not new to trying to give up. There are many people who live with gambling addiction and recover. Listen to what works for them. Keep journalling and talking. Maybe look for counselling, GA meetings, Banning from places of gambling if available to you.
Keep coming back

Pea

[tom9191]

Hia mate I’m Tom 25 and a conpulsive gambler, Ive been in your boat mate was using my dads money from a house he sold in my name was £40000 up ended up losing £70000 of his money so you really need to block your account before things get worse I’ve also stolen money from my mum and dads house about £10000 I’ve stopped for around two weeks deleted my accounts etc I’m trying to go in to Gordon moody rehab really want to change goodluck with everything Tom

[vera]

For a CG, Stillme, there is no such thing as a “win”. No such thing as “breaking even”. No such thing “ups/downs”, “shuddas/cuddas”, “walking away a winner”. These things are figments of the Gambler’s illusion.
Gambling has in fact, very little to do with money, although it’s the money that brings a CG to his knees.
Gambling is about LOSS.
Loss of dignity, loss of self esteem, loss of relationships, loss of pride, loss of hope, loss of family even loss of life.
The “wins” are few and far between. I have never heard a CG say “I’m quitting gambling; I broke the bookie” but I have heard many broken people say “I lost my wife/my job, my home , my kids , my soul”.
Redefine your interpretation of winning and losing before you post again, Stillme.
You will let go of your “losses” the moment you can look at yourself in the mirror and say
” Compulsive gamblers NEVER win- I am a Compulsive Gambler”!

[tom9191]

yes mate they do it happened coming up two years my dad hasn’t spoke to me since my mum is there for me. I have stopped for coming up two weeks this weekend, i don’t have my bank card my mum gives me cash for everything i cant trust myself I’m a compulisive gambler.

[FM]

Good luck mate stay strong your story similar like mine and we both going same emotional phase, hope we will come out from this soon

[Pea]

Nice to see you in chat and sorry i was not more talkative. Im having a little meltdown. Its good to see you here and keep up the good work gamble free.

Pea

[slotjunkie]

Just read your journal and story. Glad you have started a journal. It will help you. Banning yourself is one of the best tools us casino gamblers have. You sound like you are really gonna make it and not gamble again just for one day at a time. Hopefully i will see you again next week in the support groups. They are very beneficial to helping anyone stop gambling.

[lizbeth4]

Hi Stilltime, I found it is never too late to stop the gambling madness. It does take a lot of barriers, banning, and support to get through this journey. You have the support here from all of us and you have banned yourself, a good start!! It is hard!!! ODAAT! Stay strong. Keep posting!!!

[Pea]

I believe this is normal. Just the hungry addiction wanting to be fed. It will keep on doing this and the longer we dont give in the quieter it will get but at first its going to roar for a while to get our attention.
Hang in there you are doing really well and you are aware that your brain is trying to scheme and plot. Just get through each hour when you get the urges. Get busy and they will pass. Im telling myself this too. The addiction only gets worse so best time for us to stop is now.

Pea

[slotjunkie]

It is normal for the addiction (the Devil as I call it) to mess with you. It wants you to believe you can gamble normally like others can. But we as c.g. Cannot ever gamble normally again just for today. Posting here is a good way to help combat that feeling. I know it helps me.

[Pea]

Oh i get where you are coming from, day one for me again. Hold onto your days. I wish i had. I never want to go through it again either, we need to grab on to each others hands here and walk through this journey each day. All the best for today

Pea

[stilltime]

Woke up feeling a bit down. My mind has entertained the thoughts of gambling but I’m not going to today. Yesterday didn’t hardly think about it at all. Just have to get through day by day.

[FM]

Keep it up mate stay strong

[stilltime]

Today was much better than yesterday, I didn’t think a ton about gambling and overall felt much better. Yesterday was a very heavy depressing day and today was lighter overall if that makes any sense.

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