[deile]

Hi i dont know if im writing this in the right place even. if im not please redirect me :). I am in my twentys and it has been registering with me for a while now that I might have a gambling problem but to be honest after tonight and the way I feel rigjt now I know I have. just home from the casino, just spent what I cant afford again! I did this on thursday night and swore that was it for me but here I am again. I now feel ivelost control and its affecting my life. as much as I tell myself its a hobbie its just getting worse. Im annoyed with myself. Its the only outlet I have from my life and ive ruined it. Winning doesnt even feel that good anymore because I know it my money back from the night before. Is there anyone else feelinf like this. I just think if I knew someone that I could be honest with it woulsld help. I havent admitted this to my family. I know it will be thrown in my face so not giving them tje amunition. Thanks anyone who takes the time to read or reply. deile x

[kin]

Autobiography of an addict in 5 short chapters

Chapter 1

I walk down the street,
There is a deep hole in the sidewalk,
I fall in.
I am lost.……I am hopeless,
It take forever to find a way out.

Chapter 2

I walk down the same street ,
There is a deep hole in the sidewalk,
I pretend I dun see it,
I fall in again.
I can’t believe I am in the same place.
But I believe it isn’t my fault.
It still takes a long time to get out.

Chapter 3

I walk down the same street ,
There is a deep hole in the sidewalk ,
I see it is there
I still fall in…..it‘s a habit
I know where I am
It is my fault
I get out immediately

Chapter 4

I walk down the same street ,
There is a deep hole in the sidewalk ,
I walk around it

Chapter 5

I walk down another street.

Where are you now?

[JessicaLP]

Hi Delie..

The first step is admitting you have a problem. That is an accomplishment in itself. I am pretty new to this site as well but I have experienced the same feelings. I am also in my 20s.. It’s a struggle trying to deal with this as well as trying to get a life established.

There have been many times where I have gone to the casino, lost.. Then the next week after I get paid I go and win… But yes you’re right it’s not a win because you’re just getting back what you’ve spent. For me it’s what I spent… It owing the credit card payment that I took out for a cash advance just to stay and gamble longer. So for us it is never a win and I don’t think it ever will be. A win for us is to stay away from gambling. Each day I have to think of it as a win because if I don’t then I will think I am not getting anywhere.

Keep posting! I would love to keep in touch with you and how you are doing.

Take care,
Jessica

[micky]

HI Deile you are definitely in the right place, Jessica is right a win is not gambling today and the next day and the day after that, One Day At A Time. O.D.A.A.T. There are other things you can be doing i spend the time i would have spent gambling , keeping fit . Keep posting .Micky

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