[lauren05]

DAY ONE !

Here I go again…..

I’ve completely lost it and lost out.

I’m out of control but in denial, thinking I can control it.

It totally consumes and I’m taken out of my real world into this world of fantasy, led by my own thrills and desires and illusions of grandeur !

I foollishly believe my wins will help me have my own house one day,

But after all these years, I could have done it earlier, had I not gambled.

I think I’m ok, only because I get paid weekly but yet again, I am looking for that next pay day.

What a fool I am !

Why do I do the same thing everytime and expect a different result ? !!!

Another groundhog day !

[dunc]

Hello and thanks for starting a thread in the Gambling Therapy forums

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[maverick.]

Lauren, Firstly thanks for sharing I hear and feel your pain I honestly do, your title made me smile “groundhog day” because the amount of times I have used that phrase you wouldnt believe and like you say if we keep doing the same things over and over the days are exactly the say “groundhog day” years ago a very wise man said to me “if nothing changes then nothing changes” I thought yes whatever but over the years that saying has stuck with me and I know understand it………..if I slip up and gamble when I am in my recovery then ok dont panic but I need to address why and change something, Just glad you are here and shared with us, plenty of helpful people around here, keep sharing and read the forums its good for the soul, take care and wish you well.

Maverick

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