[Recovery]

Hi , Just call me john from the philippines.

I gamble not excessively, just anyime i get a chance by e-bingo. Started 2015. It was fun and exiing at first. i kept winning doubling or trippling my money. then money i won was used to pay my bills and have an enjoyment. i was betting small, and kept it on that roll.

until a need of money arise, my wife doesn’t know about this i hid it. 1st mistake i made since that urgent monetary need i lost 10,000 pesos ( $200) a big amount for our currency. i felt so depressed. then i quitted or atleast tried to, because of the impact.

then it calls me, i tried playing again, i won again. then it has been doing is taking my money slowly. so everytime i have a chance to play with a big money w/c was for a purpose of paying our bills i ended up losing.

house rent was due, i’m broke. i borrowed from my parents they lended me. 40k ( about $800) i lost half of it. i still was able to pay the rent but still incomplete. and i lied to my wife again. my rent is already due this dec 15th

I sold my car just the other day,but not for gambling purposes, me and my wife was supposed to invest. seeing that amount of cash in my hand triggered my urge to play. thinking that i can win or just even double it for me to be able to pay my debts. but unfortunately i lost all of it.

now, i’m broke, no car, my wife found out about it. she is devastated what more am i. late on bills and christmas is coming that is all the money i have left yet gambling devoured me.

i’m so frustrates right now, my family doesn’t want me anymore, wife is kicking me out of the house. i’m so desperate, depressed and frustrated. even wrote an tries to commit suicide due to all the things that i caused.

i want to fight, and still live. my situation right now is i don’t know where to start. i got no job as of now. couldn’t eat and sleep properly thinking how am i going to get my money back or even raise it. i badly need help. seeing my kids suffering from this broke my heart. and i’m paying for my wrong doings right now. i will never ever play again.

[Recovery]

Any sugfestions, i will stop. i just don’t know how to start again with my loses and to regain the life.

[charles]

Hello and thanks for starting a thread in the Gambling Therapy forums

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