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I am 23 year old and have been gambling heavily past 6 months. I can say the rollercoaster ride is over now. My game of choice was blackjack. Until yesterday, I was up around seven thousand dollars. I would normally bet anywhere from 25 dollars to 300 dollars a hand. However, yesterday, something inside kept telling me to bet big, I mean really big. Of course, I listened to this evil voice and initially brought all seven thousands that I had won with an initial plan to either win big or lose it all. As you can probably guess, I lost all of it within two hours. I was not satisfied and wanted to keep going, so I went to the my bank and pulled out ten thousand. I lost those ten thousand within hours as well. My mind went blank and I was speechless. The weirdest thing about it was that I was not emotionally sad or devastated. I felt numb and empty inside. I hear that most gamblers think about what they could have done with the money they lost. For me, I was just shocked because when I got into my car in the casino parking lot, I was smiling like an insane person. I honestly did not feel sad about losing that money, it is so hard to describe the feelings that I had after it was all over. emptiness is the best word to describe my feelings at that time. I gambled 4-5 days a week during that time. Today is my day one and when I think about gambling right now, it makes me sick to my stomach. I am still financially stable. I consider myself an intellectual person. I am writing this post to tell myself that if I place a bet in the future after what happened yesterday, I am the stupidest person who deserve to lose it all. No more gambling in my life
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Well done on looking for help. I am glad to hear your determination.
have you been reading the other stories here? You will see a lot of things that you will relate to, you will also see the success stories – what are they doing that you can apply to your own situation?
You will do whatever it takes to stop? Great because it is our actions that help us stop. get yourself banned from that casino. How can you limit your unaccountabel access to the sort of funds that you currently have unaccountable access to? have you heard of Gamblers Anonymous? Check out your local meeting.
Keep posting here and let us know the positive actions that you are starting to take.
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