[Flo3182]

I am losing all hope of ever been able to quit gambling for good, the last time I posted on here I had got to the point where I had spent all of my savings and vowed never to gamble again, I was doing so well and went a couple of months not gambling and managed to build some savings back up however this past couple of weeks I have been gambling full flow again and lost my savings yet again, it is like a vicious cycle I cannot get out of, I have a little gamble, lose then chase my loses which then creates much bigger loses to the point I have nothing then I ask myself why have you done it again, quit, self exclude from all sites, think I am getting back on track then end up back at square one, my family have no idea I even have a gambling problem although I know my boyfriend is suspicious I am up to something as I am back to constantly sitting on my phone gambling
I couldn’t even add up my total loses but I know it is thousands over the years, its like I cannot stop until I either win back my loses or end up with nothing
I really want to break this cycle but the more I fail the more I lose hope that I ever will
I have yet again self excluded from a couple of new sites I joined and today is my first day gamble free, I must beat this horrible disease before it leads me to financial ruin and loneliness

[i-did-it]

Hi Flo, if you have an android phone buy a gambling blocker for it today . It may well be the last bit of money you even blow on this addiction.
If you have an iPhone , down load k9, turn safari and all other search engine off . Turn App Store off and get your boyfriend to set the restriction code . Tell him you are finding the your phone too addictive if you are not ready to tell him right now . If you have no access you can’t gamble .

There will always be a new site you can join. You need to shut this down right now .

Don’t think you can’t afford the gambling blocker . You can’t afford not to have it .

You will find peace and freedom return to your life very quickly
Hope this helps

[stilltime]

Flo, I have been told here that a CG has to prevent one of these 3…Access, Time, or Money. The above poster made excellent points with the blocking software, that could help with SOME of the access issues. Are you in charge of the finances? Could you introduce some accountability with your significant other so he could see and have access to the accounts? Do you have some new hobby you could take up to help with free time? Maybe you and your husband could put the phones down during free time and enjoy watching a show/movie and strengthen your relationship without technology? Keep posting , keep getting support. If you truly want this to be your last relapse, you can do it. YOU CAN DO IT.

[Pea]

In addition to the above support. Can you try gamblers anonymous, counselling. When you get urges try delaying them. Say, i will wait an hour. The casino will always be there, the sites will always be there, wait the hour, do something else, get busy when the urges come. Continually delay, just something thats helped me in the past. I have relapsed often but learnt a lot. Wish i had a handle on it sooner. You can do it now. It only gets worse as its progressive, the more you gamble, the more you lose, not just money, but life.

pea

[Flo3182]

Thanks for all of your advice, I am in charge of my own finances, myself and my partner manage are own finances separately as we both have our own houses etc, I agree totally with all comments and am putting measures in place which will prevent me from gambling moving forward, the main problem was my savings account is an online account so I could move savings back into my main bank account in an instant, I am going to put them into a second savings account I used to use which is only accessible via a pay in savings book which will prevent me from having accessible funds at an instant, I did some baking yesterday to take my mind off gambling and am into day 2 gamble free, I know the anger and pain of the loses will ease in time and the fact is the money is gone and I need to accept that and move on

[lizbeth4]

Hi Flo, I made it harder to get to my savings account (like you mentioned above). It does help as the gambling urges stop before I can get money out. Anything to deter us from gambling. Stay strong!

[Flo3182]

Feeling a damn site better than I did this time last week after losing all that money, the first few weeks is always the hardest and I know it will get easier as time goes on, for once I’ve spent the weekend relaxing and watching movies etc with my partner instead of sitting online gambling, even done some baking today, we can get through this one day at a time

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