[justanothergambler]

Hi everyone, I’m in desperate need of help.

I’ve been gambling since I’m 14, I’m now 20. It all started out with a friend telling me about online poker, I said why not and stole my moms ID to make a photo with my phone and got an account to play. That’s all it took for me to get hooked. I loved everything , the thrill, the atmosphere, the players. Soon enough I was depositing $20-$50 per day from my mom’s credit card. Then from my ant’s, sister’s, you name it. Started stealing money from the house. When my mom found out about this she was devastated. Haven’t gone to school in 3 months at 16 telling her I’m depressed but all I did was player poker from dusk to dawn. Got expelled from high school in terminal grade, twice from skipping to much classes. I still don’t have the complete high school education. I used to wake up in the morning and pretend to go to school but I was actually going at a casino.

It feels awful writing this and remembering all of those things. With time things only got worse. Almost everyone in my family knows about this, they’ve been supportive I can’t complain. My mom especially, she’s been amazing in all of this. So amazing that I have no rent.

My ant has an apartment and she let’s us cash in the rent. Well she lets me cash it in to show that she trusts me. It goes right into my back account every month since January. That money is for our bank loan. When the rent comes, I go at night and play it all, some months I won and nobody knew anything but most of the months I lost. And my mom has gone through incredible efforts to cover me from my ant. Loaning from friends, not paying bills, etc. It hurts so much thinking about this. I have everything I could possible want, I have my own mini-aparment which is 1 minute from my family. They give me poket money, anything I need. They’re great parents. And we’re not rich by any means, we’ve been acutally doing pretty bad in the last couple of years. And what do I do? I ruin them more. Mentally, financially, emotionally.

I like gambling a lot, especially when I drink. Yes maybe a solution would be not to drink but it just seems like gambling it’s taking all pleasure from life.

This has really taken over my life and I don’t know what to do about it.

[velvet]

Hello Justanothergambler and thanks for starting a thread in the Gambling Therapy forums

Here at Gambling Therapy we pride ourselves on being a caring and diverse online community who can help and support you with the difficulties you’re currently facing. We understand that this might be a tough time for you, particularly if you’re new to recovery, so come here as often as you need to and participate in the forums, access online groups and connect to the live advice helpline if you need one to one support. We’re in this together!

Here on the forum you can share your experiences in a safe, supportive and accepting environment. The beauty of writing it all down is that you can take your time and you will be creating a record of your progress that you can look back on if it ever feels like you’re not moving forward. So, share as much or as little as you like but do try to stick to keeping just one thread in this forum so people know where to find you if they want to be updated on your progress or share something with you.

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And on that note….

I’m going to hand you over to our community because I’m sure they will have some words of wisdom for you 🙂

Take care

The Gambling Therapy Team

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