[klinger]

Hey everyone, I am a 22 year old female; I started gambling almost 2 years ago. I found myself going every so often gambling small, as you all know it starts small and before you know it you have gambled your whole weeks paycheck in one session. This only happened after a won a jackpot, of course I was excited and happy and spent most of the money on bills and rego but with the remaining money I went back for more. I became obsessed by it                                              …I spent every last hundred in that place and ended up going back and back. I have lost my friends that I have had for 10 years because I was so ashamed to tell then what was going on, I had no money to go out with them or even go around the corner to their house because I would gamble petrol money etc. I became depressed. From such a happy social person to a complete mess. Anxiety attacks, mental breakdowns and points where I just felt so alone I couldn’t cope. I have come out about my addicted to my fiancee and family and they are supppirtive but I still feel the need after so long dealing with this that I have to lie so I don’t worry them. I am getting worse and worse and would love some support and advice. I feel as nothing can fix me and I’m broken. I punish
Myself everyday for all the misery I cause myself and others. I have good days but
Mostly bad days. I feel isolated and trapped and it’s like being in that gaming room
With other
Unhappy people really makes me feel like I’m not the only one. I can’t eat somedays and have lost a dramatic amount of weight in the year and a half. I feel as though substituting with smoking weed some nights helps me block out
My thoughts, which seem to never switch off. I have seen a psychologist but feel as though I got nowhere and he will keep directing back to my business and how successful I’m going to be. I’m a personal trainer now and exercise has picked me up from depression a little bit, but
Hasn’t solved it. I have to deal with people everyday and put on a
Mask to make them feel good about themselves but
Deep down
I’m dying inside 🙁 I go everytime I get paid in cash from them and am practically working for free. I’m exhausted, alone and in desperate need of someone to relate to me and help me in anyway. Please I know there is no magic pill or instant solution but I need faith and belief because I can’t do it
Alone
Anymore

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