[jakis12345]

Hello,
My name is Janis I have been writing in the forums at the end of 2011. I had a 3 week period back then when I didn’t gamble. But I got back in the games… This time more serious, with more trouble and with a lot more pain for my loved ones and myself. 2 weeks ago I got a wake up call…
So as I stated above my name is Janis. I am 21 and have been gambling since I was 16. It all started with small bets in local bookies here in Latvia. As the time went on I was working in my fathers company and I was getting quite big salary for a 16 year old. I placed big bets and that didn’t bother me, but as the financial situation got worse in my country my father was not able to keep me employed. I was already in the game, I couldn’t say no. I stared to steal from my family, gold bracelets, money disappearing from wallets, borrowing from my friends etc. It went like that till I was 18 and then my father find out and kicked me out of the house. I went to live with my grandmother. I had a hard time to finish high school and was not working anywhere so my grandmother, my mother and my aunt often helped me out to get free from my debts. But I still continued… As time went by my father took me back. I was working in his company again, I met the girl of my life everything was great, but not inside me. I was still gambling with everything I had. I never had good relationship with my father but the gambling problem made it more intense. My aunt died last summer and I went crazy, literary crazy. I blamed everyone. I gambled very hard, my money and my girlfriends money of course she didn’t know anything. As I sad I was blaming everyone instead myself. After 2 months I calmed down. I decided to go to UK to start everything from blank page. I bought ticket and moved to my girlfriends father, found a job next day… I got paid per week the same amount I earned in Latvia. I paid my rent and the rest I gambled away… Sometimes I didn’t have money to buy food for myself. In September my girlfriend joined me in UK. I had no money when she came… But I had no problem with that because I wanted to gamble so I found a new way where to get money – payday loans. On November I had 2 payday loans and I told to my self I have to stop, so I stopped for three weeks. Paid off one loan and had the last payment on the other one. But then I went to casino again, I lost all my salary and took another 5 payday loans! So I lived like that till the end of May 2012, paying off a little bit from each loan, taking again new one, paying my rent and without any money for my self and my girlfriend. My girl went to Italy to visit her mother and left one of her debit cards at home, so I took a loan on her name as well. She didn’t know about that till the time she got letter from the payday loan company. On the 31st of may I got my salary and went to casino. And this time I lost everything money for rent, money for payments… So in one day everyone founded out about my problems. I got kicked out of the house, my girlfriend left me….
So with out any money I went back to Latvia I used to stop cars on highway to get back here.
So now I am here back in Latvia trying to regroup and turn this thing around. I will go back to UK next month will try to set up payment plans with my payday loans – total of 9. Rent a small room and just try to start everything from blank page.
Recently I have also discovered I have issues remembering things, sometimes I can’t remember what I have done yesterday.
Hopefully meditation, good thoughts and my believing in tomorrow will help me to get better each day, build my character and get back to person I used to be.
Sorry for my English 😉

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