Hello all, first post on here. So here is how it begun.

When I turned 18 a few weeks after a new bookmakers had opened in my small town, this was a first for the town. So I visited, and just watched people betting and playing the fobt’s I didn’t bet I had no clue how to. But remember the feeling of how it looked easy to win money, so I carried on visiting and watched until I felt confident enough to place some bets. I quickly made the decision that horses and dogs weren’t for me, I was more attracted to the fobt’s, so I would put in £10, sometimes £20 in. Nothing much happened, bit of profit then lost it all. On the roughly 4th or 5th visit I played **** **** and won the jackpot £500, and that was it HOOKED. With that money o shortly won another jackpot on Rainbow Riches.

I started calling in sick from work to be able to go to the bookies, started to lose the value of money. A days work of around £80 felt like nothing when I can just win that in an instant. That sort of gambling way of thinking.

Lies after lies being said to my family and partner, about why I don’t have any money. Where is it all going.

Then I started to gamble online as well, it went even worse, I would literally spend all the money that I had.

13 years later, now 31 writing this. And I’m still in the same exact hole. I think over the course of 13 years I have easily gambled in the excess of £100k. That’s a bloody house.

Still telling family and partner lies after lies, nobody knows except me.

I have no control over the habit, if I go into the bookies, I can’t just spend £20 I’m always all in. I spend £300 normally to try and get a £500 jackpot, where’s the sense in that. When I’m online I always deposit £20 at the start always with the same mind process of just this one deposit, then it’s £30 then £50 then £100 etc.

The biggest cashout I’ve ever had was for £6500, I spent around £1500 for things the £4000 was gambled over a few days. I think if I won my total loss of around £100k back I would just end up gambling it all anyway, what’s the point?

So, this is my diary, I will be posting here every day to stay gamble free, please feel free to join me to get rid of this life destroying illness.

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• This topic was modified 4 years, 6 months ago by Dunc. Reason: Removal of gambling company name