[Steev]

So can you use the army as a way of letting your feelings out? I guess there will be a gym, training, a chance to punch, kick, shout and really let go. You may still be in pain but your head should be clearer.

It will be important to find something else you can relax with otherwise the temptation to gamble will prey on you, especially if you make friends who play cards etc.

You are holding up well. Take care of yourself.