You know Bee it actually sounds like ur hubby is an amazing help! Why not really open up and tell him how difficult it is for you . Why not ask him to take control of the finances and ask him not to give in to you. Why not tell him having money in the bank and not having this stressful life would truly make you happy. Explain to him the what was an escape from your pain has become a trap causing pain.
I found it is almost impossible to resist playing the free fiver or whatever when I signed up to sites to ban. Then I would think a tenner won’t hurt – only one . Next thing I was broken cos I had lost half the wages for the month . A gambling blocker like gam blocker or bet filter would be a great investment of your hubby’s pay . You could not gamble on line at all. You can also get hubby to set parental controls on the wifi and not give u the code .
Throw everything at this Bee . Give it your all! I think it’s a great idea to self ban at those bookies .
Make your whole life about not gambling For the next few months . It will be hard work and sometimes seem impossible but u need to abstain to break down this addiction. It does get easier. And like you – it is so worth it