You are here and posting. I know that my commitment to myself to post once a day no matter what really helped me to get my head around what I was doing. Make a commitment to yourself. Post once a day, once a week. Put some barriers in place. If you have someone you trust who can help you with your money that’s a great place to start as we cannot gamble without any money. I wish you well. I recognise that your posting here is a statement of intent in the first place because you aren’t out there thinking of ways to cause more damage.
