I made it through work. I’m definitely getting sick with a cold. I cut the antidepressant in half. My DR has recommended that if it was too strong for me. How long can I lie to creditors? Every time I relapsed, I lie to get more time to pay. At some point they are going to get fed up. I’m fed up with me!!!! While I was vacuuming tonight, I thought of a boss I’d had. He was very understanding with me. My youngest was doing drugs, running away from home, ect… Some nights I would be up all night, chasing her down, staking out drug houses that she frequented, putting her in rehabs. Doing the cycle over and over. If it wasn’t for him and his insight I would have lost my job. Years later I heard he had lost his job because of his drinking. He’d gone through the programs at work but had continued to drink. I think of him often as looking back he knew what my Daughter was going through, addiction. He was living it. I’m a gambling addict. What would people think of me if they knew? Would they be kind and understanding or treat me like someone less than them. I’m not giving in. I’m still fighting.
