Thank you everyone for your kind and generous thoughts and words. I still feel yuck, will this pass? My partner has turned out so good about this. Do I deserve this, is this what he is really thinking.? It would be so easy to let myself turn mad with all this overthinking. Perhaps all part and parcel of this process . I did think I would feel a little. Ore at ease but it seems all those around me think this was a good idea, was it really. I am being so very well supported but still feel so alone. As I re read this it seems that I am self loathing to bits. I do hope with time, this too will pass. As I pat my beloved Burmese girl (cat) who is my constant non judgemental companion,, I’m thinking that if I am ever reincarnated that I will return as a beloved Burmese, cherished, as she is by her slave.
