You wrote “who cares – I should.” Do you really care about yourself? Do you feel you are caring for yourself when you are gambling, winning, losing, searching for more money to lose, getting drunk to numb the pain. It all has to stop. You are worth more than this. If you DO care about yourself, talk to someone – a helpline, a friend you can trust. If you DO care about yourself, admit that your current behaviour isn’t working. Take stock, how can you be different. The idea of a new start was a good one, but you needed support – otherwise the pull of the Indian casino was always there. Get the support you need. Make it your priority and take GOOD care of yourself.
