When I think of the time I have lost with my kids- when I could have been spending time with them instead of gambling, I am overcome with grief. And I beat myself up over it. I can’t change the past, all I can change is the present. I own my responsibility in making the choices I made and then do better in spending time with my family that day. That is all we can do.
I am sorry for what you are going through. I am glad to hear that your dad is supporting you and that you have family to help you through this. I hope that you continue with your supports to stay gamble free.
Addiction, whether it be to gambling, alcohol, or drugs, wreaks havoc on people’s lives. It is the cause of so much pain for so many people. Over the weekend, someone very close to me lost their nephew to murder. He was into crystal meth. He was so brilliant and had done so many amazing things before addiction took over.