Went to the Dr’s and he agreed to adjust my medication to a lower dosage and also armed me with another round of sleeping tablets. The latter seems to be helping me more than the Citrilopram. Some nights I really struggle to sleep which does not help the situation. Neither I suppose does getting hooked on sleep meds but there you go.
Im a week now since my last fall from grace. Managed to push a “nasty” debt back to next week. The pressure financially is on me and next week will be tough going. But I have not gambled.
Missing my son like crazy and looking at how to afford a ticket to see him for a few days. It all comes down to being able to put the hours into the work I do. For me no work = no money. Double edged sword of being self employed. I feel okay within myself tonight … had a bit of a silent do with a woman I am getting to know but not going to stress on that. There is talk of us meeting up for a 4th time but lets see.