Well got some urges quite strong to gamble right now. A bit of money I had forgotten about landed in my account earnings from last month. Overall around 90 down on the rent. Then the thoughts come to me if I can just win xxx amount!
So came here instead of gambling. Need to get through the day without placing a bet! Am working at the moment will try focus on that and by some miracle earn as much towards the rent as possible in the short time left before the cut off point to trigger payment this week!
A totally insane way to live on a wing and prayer day by day! Got to stop this. I just want the thoughts and urges to gamble to LEAVE ME THE HELL ALONE.
Still fighting 😉 onwards if not sometimes slightly sideways.
And thanks Kpat for your response seems we are in this together!