Welcome Tonilouise,
This compulsion, addiction, illness, whatever you chose to call it will only get worse with time. If you can realize that you need to deal with this regardless of whether your relationship ends, that you need to deal with it for you, for your future no matter what that future holds, then it makes it easier to come to terms with where you are now. He is probably angry and feeling betrayed. He may still give you an opportunity to explain about your addiction. And perhaps if you show him that you are taking steps to seriously address it, such as gambler’s anonymous meetings, requesting counseling etc he will support you. But either way, you need address this for you, or as Shark says it will continue to rule your life going forward. There are many of us here that have recovered at all ages. We all wish we had done it earlier. Right now you do have time on your side but that can slip away if you don’t address this. Some serious food for thought! Hugssss! Laura