[kpat]

Welcome to the forum!
I started here in October and the people here have helped so much. Once you start writing, I found it helpful to go back and read my earlier posts. It reminds me of how desperate I was when I first tried to seriously quit. I had tried for nearly two years on shear willpower. (I found that was not working). I finally banned myself and started my journal.
You can stop. It really is worth it.