Closing in on week 2 nearly gamble free. 1 “slip” last week but i dont think much about gambling more recently. This morning i woke up before my fiance, had a friend staying with us and i had to let him out before my phone alarm went off. I went to shave and took the phone into the bathroom so i could turn off my alarm so as not to wake her.
She thought i was gambling again, which i wasn’t, no reason to lie here. Trust is hard won and easily lost. Every gambling advertisement, every friend who tells me about his bets, every story you read about gambling addictions in the media , all reminds her of the person i am now, how will she ever trust me going forward ? I don’t know. Too many questions, no quick fix solutions, but at least for now i am not gambling . First step is to come clean about my relapse.